JESSY Mendiola has finally broken free of her self-doubts and insecurities after being held back by it all her life.
The actress made this candid confession in a lengthy Instagram post on Saturday where she narrated how she could not see her self-worth for the longest time because of what others think of her.
“My whole life I’ve been in a constant battle with myself. I’ve always doubted what I could do. I was afraid of change. I couldn’t see my worth and how important I was in this life. Every little comment or opinion of others about me affected me like I was defined by how people thought of me,” she said.
Mendiola said she kept losing herself because she always wanted to please others.
“I was afraid to do so many things that made me happy because I was worried that others would judge me. I’ve let myself become someone else, all those years I kept hating myself for always giving so much to other people that I kept forgetting how to love myself,” she said.
Now, she’s learned to let go of all the pain, struggles and failures.
“My entire life, I felt like I was on a roller coaster ride that would never end but finally, it has ended. I finally feel at peace. I‘ve lost who I was and now I found myself again only to learn that God has never left my side, He showed me how worthy I am and what I am capable of doing,” she said.
Saying she’s been blinded by things she didn’t need in life, Mendiola said it pushed her to search for peace in her heart which she now has.
“Everything I need is within me. God woke me up and made me realize my worth as a human being. He made me realize that He had been there all along in every step that I took in my life. He changed me. He changed my ways, my thinking and my perspective in life. He taught me how to value myself again and I’m just so grateful,” she said.
Saying she never felt this way before, Mendiola described her current states as something wonderful.
“I am whole again. I am not afraid anymore. I’m taking the leap. I am free,” she said.(ABS-CBN)
