I WILL continue to take photos of sunrises and sunsets until the end of the year.
So far, I have been very good in my resolution since the beginning of the year.
My heart only sank in late July.
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I left Los Angeles at 2pm on July 25, and of course, I was waiting for the sunset.
I kept my plane window slightly open (as most passengers slept much of the flight).
But the sunset never came.
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We flew towards the east in total brightness, all the time.
All more than 14 hours of it.
We lost a day in flight.
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I didn’t get my July 25 sunset.
I also didn’t get my July 26 sunrise.
That’s a sunset and a sunrise missed.
The first and only that I have missed since the beginning of the year.
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We arrived in Tokyo at 4pm.
Just in time for my July 26 sunset.
From Tokyo, we flew to Singapore.
We arrived at 2am on July 27.
So, my July 27 sunrise was in Singapore.
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We left Singapore for Manila at 3pm.
My July 27 sunset was in the air over Philippine waters.
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As a completist, I am not very happy about losing my July 25 sunset and July 26 sunrise.
But what do you do when life happens?
When science dictates that you lose one day when you fly from west to east?
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I am writing about this now because it stressed me a little bit.
Writing is my therapy.
When I am sad, when I am angry, when I have something to get off my chest, I write.
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My life is not perfect. It just appears to be so.
I am not 24/7, 365 days a year happy or cheerful.
But I am 24/7, 365 days a year content.
And on the whole, happy.
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I have so much goodness to share.
I have so much wisdom.
So much humor.
I have so much love for life.
I have so much faith in humanity.
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It shows in my humor.
It shows in how I generously share my ideas through my writings.
In my columns, I share the most superficial, and the most sensitive, parts of me.
My day in, my day out.
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If I am bitter, would I be sharing?
If I am bitter, would I have time to think of my readers?
If I am bitter, would I be funny and humorous?
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The fact that I write as a therapy only shows how mentally healthy I am.
How self-aware.
How self-disciplined and self-caring.
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Because I spend time with nature, watching and tracking the sun, I understand life.
I understand life’s metaphors.
I enjoy beauty.
I enjoy the simple things in life.
I have a great connection to Life, with the capital letter L.
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In the end, missing a sunset and a sunrise may not be a big deal.
In fact, I believe that it doesn’t bother anyone but me.
But the fact that it bothered me a little bit, I know that I needed to fix myself.
And I will fix myself!
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Prescription to self: Let go.
Do not sweat the small stuff.
Nothing can be done about some things.
If nothing can be done, why worry?
Worrying won’t solve anything.
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But lessons can be learned.
Life metaphors can be understood.
And that’s how I grow in wisdom.
I learn that however I want to complete some stuff, some things cannot be done.
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And so I move on, I roll.
No guilt, no regrets.
And that’s why I am a happy person.
That’s why I am well-adjusted.
I am mentally healthy, and much saner than most./PN
