IN MY LAST column, I explained that I am not desperate to find a boyfriend.
But I also implied that I am open to the idea…
Wait, strike that out.
I meant, I also implied that I want to find a boyfriend.
That I am available, and looking.
Do I really have to be explicit about it?
Okay, here it goes:
I want to find a boyfriend… now!
As in, pronto!
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So anyway, there is this guy.
He asked me—
Why me?
And why (did you come to my life) just now?
And for the first question, I just wanted to reply, Because I am desperate.
But that is not true.
Because I am not desperate.
Because there is a system in how I choose a possible boyfriend.
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I mean, I have certain standards.
Because, well, I am fifty.
I have some money.
I got social standing.
I got fame and celebrity.
I am an influencer.
And I got fans and followers who look up to me.
But most importantly, I have self-respect.
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I am empowered, and self-actualized.
I know what I want.
And I can afford to get anything I want.
If I can’t afford it, I probably don’t want it.
I mean, say for example, a certain movie star goes gay-for-pay for me.
You know, give up his ass for my money.
I’ll probably pay P100,000 if he’s really famous and cute.
But not a centavo more.
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For my taste, no one is worth P100,001 in Philippine show business.
And the ones I really like are not even worth P20,000 a night.
So, there’s that.
I can afford prostitutes.
But I’m not into prostitutes.
Been there, done that!
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You see, Peter Solis Nery is all about love.
All about commitment.
Monogamy.
Maybe even marriage.
I mean, Been there, than that!
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So, to answer the boy’s question, Why him?
Because I am not really choosy.
Because I know what I want.
I do not propose to every guy I see.
I meet people, and if I like them, I tell them.
I woo them.
Sometimes, even when they say No.
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I have this motto: Loving them to love.
It means that I continue to love people who do not love me at first until they learn and turn to love me.
Most of the time, I succeed in loving people.
That’s why I really cannot have enemies.
Because I love even my enemies until they love me, and don’t want to be enemies with me anymore.
Those who consider me their enemies, they’re not really my enemies.
They are just sad people who do not even exist in my world.
So, there’s that.
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Anyway, Loving Them To Love as a practical philosophy has its limitations.
Because I really don’t want to force people into loving me.
I try to love people; but if they’re really resisting, say for six months or so, I let them go.
I mean, isn’t that true love right there?
And, you know, I am Love.
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So, Why you?
Because I like you, idiot!
And I see myself living the rest of my life with you, and you possibly living your best and happiest life with me.
Why just now? Why did I come to your life just now?
Destiny.
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I mean, that’s the easy answer.
Because thirteen to five years ago, I was married.
I was a devoted, faithful, monogamous husband.
And twenty to thirteen years ago, I was poor, closeted, arrogant, and not ready for a commitment.
And thirty to twenty years ago, when I was idealistic and romantic, and believed that love is such a mystery, you weren’t even been born yet.
So, there.
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Look, I’m not desperate for a boyfriend.
But I’m not as young as you are.
I am fifty.
And I want to live fully.
I cannot wait for you.
If you are not flying to the moon with me, get off my plane.
Because I am Love! (500tinaga@gmail.com/PN)
