Perceived rich

I DON’T know who spread the word that I am rich.

I mean, I’ve always thought that I was rich because I don’t need much.

I mean, I know that I can afford LV, Chanel, Gucci, Hermès, Balenciaga, et cetera.

I just don’t want them.

And I definitely don’t need them.

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I live rather poorly, rather cheaply.

I mean, I travel a lot.

I mean, I have these great experiences with entertainment, luxurious dining, meeting famous people.

But it’s not like I’m paying the full price.

Instead of staying in a $200 per night hotel, I stay at $27 per night hostels.

But it doesn’t mean that I don’t eat, or do my toilet, in $400 hotels.

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If I eat grandly at more than $30 a plate, you can be sure that somebody else is paying for my meal.

When I visit my friends, I volunteer to sleep on the couch.

And of course, they don’t let me.

At my friends’, I always feel comfortable with leftover food.

I’m the official refrigerator scavenger; anybody who really knows me understands that.

But of course, my friends always take me out to fancy restaurants.

And of course, I take photos at the restaurants. Haha.

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Still, people think I’m super rich.

They Google my net worth.

They stalk my social media accounts full of travels, and exciting hard-to-fake lifestyle.

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And so on the week that my uncle got sick with Covid-19, I got not one, but two, offers for real estate properties in the Philippines.

One was a short-sell for a house in Park Regency.

The other was a “good deal” for a small boarding house in a university belt.

How do I say, “I am not that rich!”?

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When my uncle got sick, and the hospital bills were mounting, I could feel my family’s eyes on me.

But I only got to this point: I give what I can afford to give.

For everything else, I can give a loan.

But it has to be paid.

I don’t care if it will be paid in five or ten years’ time, but it has to be paid.

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Now, that sounds selfish, or brazen.

But you must understand the whole story.

My uncle has a life insurance; at the very least, about half a million pesos.

And I am not the beneficiary, but my cousins.

Also, I campaigned hard for my uncle to get a Covid-19 vaccine; but somebody in the family got to him first, or hard.

So please do not paint me as the bad person here.

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In the aftermath of my uncle’s death, my sister, the crazy one, called me selfish.

Because she thinks I had the money, and did not assume the 1.2M hospital bill.

Well, I let her call me names because I know she’s just grieving.

Raving mad. Going crazy. 

Grief can do that to people.

Let’s just see what she says when she knows she is also not a beneficiary of uncle’s life insurance. Haha!

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My uncle’s death and hospitalization has confirmed my fears.

And I will say it again, I do not want my family to spend on my health issues.

My budget for any serious illness is only 2M pesos.

If 2 million can’t save me, let me go.

Just let me go.

I have lived life to the fullest.

There is nothing I missed in this world.

Everything else after 50 for me is just a bonus!

I am rich that way.

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When people declare that I am rich, I do not correct them.

Because in a way, I do feel rich.

I am not Marcos rich.

I am not politician rich.

I have no ill-gotten wealth.

And I worked hard for whatever I have.

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I never stole from anyone.

And the fact that I’m happy with my life, that’s really rich.

I mean, that’s how I really want to be remembered. 

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I like that people think that I am rich.

I also don’t like that people think that I am rich.

Picture me just coming home from the US, and these people from my town visit me, and ask for assistance to buy medicines for their sick.

And I say, We got DSWD for that. You have your mayor’s and politicians’ discretionary funds for that.

And if people can understand it, I really want to say, “I am not the Messiah!”  

Meaning, I maybe rich, but I’m not the Messiah!/PN

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