THIS PIECE is continued from Monday’s “Wanted: Warm Body”.
Which started to explain why I wanted a boyfriend at age 50.
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I haven’t done Grindr in a while now.
I mean, I would look who are around me when I visit places.
Or when I am bored.
Or when I’m not busy writing for Panay News.
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And I would entertain the cuties and Greek gods who pursue me like they’re really horny for me.
But these days, I mostly just want to see if they can get me really horny to want to meet them.
Which is to say, I don’t lack for sex.
If I want it.
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But I don’t really like sex with strangers.
I want a husband.
I want a steady partner.
Because while taste testing is exciting, I really want to be monogamous.
I want a relationship.
And I want to f*ck without a condom!
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You see, I’m so scared of sexually transmitted infections.
I mean, I want to be truly sex positive, and promote all sorts of wonderful sex.
But I only endorse Responsible Consensual Adult Recreational Sex!
And for myself, I’m even taking the HIV prophylactic Truvada everyday on top of the condoms.
I mean, I’m not afraid I’ll get pregnant.
Or I’ll get another man pregnant.
But I’m always anxious that the condoms can break!
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So, understand that I really want a monogamous gay relationship.
I want someone to sleep with at night.
Someone to wake up to in the morning.
And someone to play with in between.
I want a lot of kissing and cuddling.
I want sex that rocks the world, and drives the neighbors crazy.
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But having an older lover for eight years (husband of six years), I feel I don’t really want another older guy in my next relationship.
I’m not being ageist.
The way my husband left me was just a little too traumatic for me.
And how can you accuse me of being ageist?
Years before I was discriminated upon for my age, I chose a husband who was 22 years older than me!
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I’m not ageist.
I’m just saying that I want a younger boyfriend or husband at this time in my life.
Because I’m still pretty active and healthy.
And I still want to travel, and see much of the world.
I don’t want to be stuck with an older guy who can no longer run a marathon with me.
Who can’t sky dive.
Who can’t run to catch a train in Europe.
Who can’t fall on ice without breaking his hip.
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What I like being with this visiting friend of mine is that she understands how I like traveling.
How I love new experiences, and exploring places.
But especially how I do it with the least expense.
How I try to cram up in a day the best of everything time and energy can buy.
So we get by with so little.
I like to do challenges like A City for Less than $100 a Day!
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And I can do that with younger boys who have no problem catching early trains.
Or lunching on hotdogs.
I can definitely do that with younger boys who do not complain of long walks every three kilometers.
Who didn’t have to go peeing every 30 minutes.
Who wouldn’t be too worried about catching pneumonia from a little rain.
In short, I want a boy of 20 or 30 who can compete with me who is living actively like a 20-something.
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But I want this boy to have some maturity and insight.
I want him to be adult and smart like me.
I want him to go past impressing other people with material things.
Because I am not rich.
And I don’t want him and me working most of our lives to afford his material wants.
I want to spoil my future boyfriend or husband with the luxury of time and leisure.
I want us to enjoy the world.
But as cheaply as possible.
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I want him to enjoy Paris for less than $100 a day.
I want him to choose the City of Lights experience instead of buying another vape atomizer.
I want my boyfriend to travel with just three pieces of T-shirts instead of staying at home with a closet full of clothes he hardly ever wears again.
I want him to eat street food in Prague rather than dine expensively in a hotel without leaving town.
I want him to trust me.
Because I have seen the world, and have traveled it cheaply.
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And I would like to travel some more.
But only do it my way.
Because I spend for my own travels.
My trips are not paid for by government funds and taxpayers’ money.
My trips are not paid for by ill-gotten wealth.
My trips are not sponsored by corrupt politicians who expect me to be their slaves.
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I travel cheaply because I am not rich.
But I get to travel.
And I travel with my head held up high.
Because I know how to get by with so little.
Because I travel smartly.
And especially because I am indebted to no one.
Not even the credit card companies! (500tinaga@gmail.com/PN)
